Well I do! This past week was my first week back to reality after my 2 week holiday in Florida. It felt like I got nothing accomplished. I know some things got done, but it was a big catch up week for me, and really unfocused.
I really dislike that feeling! I feel unorganized, uneasy, and just not settled. Part of this feeling was that my oldest daughter was writing her exams and I knew it was interrupting any flow of work I was trying to achieve.. We are a ways from the school so I drive her each day. Her exam times were all over the map. She missed some tests while we were away so she needed to go back and forth to do those too.
At the beginning of this week, she woke up with an extremely sore throat, I gave her some advil for a couple days and she used cough drops to help. Last night in the night she was in incredible pain. I knew it was time for a doctor trip.. I agonized at the thought of waiting at a walk in clinic for 3 hours, so I quickly dismissed that thought, focused on making the call and getting in. I called, and she asked me if I could be there in 20 minutes. So we were. She ended up having strep so it was a good thing we went! Now what kind of job could I have that would afford me the luxury of time to do this? Drive her each day and wish her good luck... So I had 1 unfocused week, it actually gave me plenty of driving time to think.
My daughter was not in the mood for chatting with a sore throat, so I drove and thought. I came up with a lot of good ideas and many things I know I need to do to; PLAN my weeks better, and my time. Scheduling has never been a strong point for me, and I know it is something I need to work on .. continually, and I plan to. I can actually hear Deb Dawson Dunn in my head right now,
and she'd say.. "Are you crazy? Look how much planning you do every day and all of thing s you run, and 3 kids, and 2 business' you have to be pretty organized to schedule and do all of that "
She is right... I tell myself all of the time, but there is a flow that happens and it just works, and this week the flow was off. it was just on... off... on... off... I'm not really sure where this was going, but I think I know now what the point of it is. Sometimes when things are not going as planned, or as you hoped, you just need to go with it and let it all go. Let go of the control for a bit... There is nothing you can do about it, but let it go and let life happen...once in a while.
Tomorrow all of my kids are off school - one more day of this crazy week and I am so grateful that I am recognizing to enjoy it!
